The Monster Living With Me

All I want is to lead a productive and successful life. I take two steps forward and 20 steps back. I’ve been working so hard at this life. To have a good work ethic and take care of myself and get my work done, and be dependable and and and…and it never ends. It’s like …

The Most Challenging Year

This month marks a year since the most challenging time of my life. December will mark a year since I finally decided to take the help my family was offering. February is the month I received my mental health diagnosis. This has been the most difficult, telling, revolutionary year of my life to date. I …

It’s a Good Life That I Live

Waking up every morning is exhausting. I put my full effort into being happy and chugging through the day to day. Even to just be content would be nice. It seems like a chore just to do the things that seem to come so easily to others. To shower and brush my teeth is more …

Making Love

Making Love is such a beautiful thing.  These are such strange times but, times that have shown me a side of life I’ve never gotten to enjoy. The mention of ‘Making Love’ brings such a specific picture to mind. It’s two people, it’s sexual, it’s only available through another person. I am learning that sincerely …

Three Wise Men

It’s such a strange feeling to be so comfortable around a person you hardly know. It doesn’t happen often, but I felt it as soon as I met Maureen and Jeff. I should have known when I kept running into them throughout the bookstore that it was for a reason. It’s usually so unnerving to …

My Declaration of Self-Help

I’m a waitress. One thing I hear constantly from my managers and coworkers is “don’t be afraid to ask for help”. I don’t like that. I am not good at asking for help; it makes me extremely uncomfortable and halfway through asking for it, I normally decide it was a mistake and try to reverse …